In an emotional and nostalgia centered way, I have been slowly making it through the different epochs of my life with respect to my relationship with another individual.
An epoch is a time period notable for certain events, persons, etc. In my mind these are created in our own history. Any piece of personal nostalgia will trigger not only a particular moment associated with it but together with it, the time period, the general “feeling” that you had been experiencing, you will then start to recall bits of information surrounding that time. I’ve noticed it be the case often with music, if I play for you a song you recall from your teenage years you will immediately recall the emotions that you so closely related to that music. Often it seems to be the case that music has been a catalyst through which people experience emotional resolution.
There doesn’t seem to me to be any clear method through which I am making my way through the history of emotional epochs but it does seem to be steadily moving across linearly. It’s as if my mind falls back into that epoch at any given moment, like a series of flashbacks.
One fate I fear to be inevitable is that as I progress through each epoch and eventually make my way up through the end of those that concern the relationship in question, that I will leave behind the found and at present, vivid emotions with which I experience this retrospection.
Though, I suppose short of cataloging each feeling there is not much one can do but accept the fleeting nature of emotions. With the departure of emotions and desires beget new ones. It would seem when that time has arrived this concern will no longer be a concern of that state of mind.